Thursday, April 20, 2017

Baby Harrison #3 News

Hey everyone!

I've been anxiously waiting to make a special announcement and that is that we are PREGNANT!
Which most of you know by now but still, it feels so good typing those words! Here is how we announced our pregnancy at 14 weeks!

I've been asked quite a bit about this pregnancy and thought I'd fill in a lot of questions.

The last post I wrote, I talked about how we have been struggling to get pregnant and that come January, we would be seeing a fertility specialist. Well in January, I made an appointment and the soonest they could get me in was February 6th. I made the appointment and like every month, for the last two years, we tracked our ovulation but not like I had been previously. In the back of my mind, I thought "oh well" we see a specialist next month and we will get answers. So I wasn't as persistent and on it as I had been before. Or I should say "we". (Man, this is kind of awkward to write about haha!) Anyways, I guess by not stressing about it and trying as hard as we had been, that's what we needed.

On Thursday, Feb 2nd, I was packing for our trip to Utah and realized I'd have to pack tampons. So just for kicks (because I KNEW that I wouldn't be pregnant) I took a test. Instead of waiting to see the "negative" result, I put the test on my dresser, facing up and went about my day. Between mommy duties with Maddox and watching the little girl I care for, I totally spaced on the test. So later that afternoon, I walked in my room to grab flip flops and looked down at the test as I was walking straight by it and I had to do a double take. POSITIVE. Whaaaaaaat?! My knees completely buckled and I fell straight to the floor in tears. I immediately went and took another one to be sure and this time, I didn't put it down. I watched as both the lines went solid pink! Marc was going to be home later that evening, so I waited to tell him. Hardest thing ever but I kept quiet. When he got home, I showed him the stick and he was so excited. Of course, I cried! I canceled my fertility appointment and we left for Utah and had a great time.

Fast forward to when I was about 6 weeks pregnant, I called to make an appt with a dr and the soonest they could get me in was when I would be almost 14 weeks. (Even with my history of preeclampsia and the miscarriage) So, at about 9 weeks pregnant, I started getting really nervous about having another miscarriage so I scheduled an early ultrasound through a private company so that I could see the baby and hear the heartbeat. We waited to tell the boys until I was 10 weeks and on the day that we were going to go to the ultrasound place. The boys were excited and we had my MIL and mom come too! When we got there, the tech confirmed my due date and sure enough, the baby was alive and growing! Thank goodness! We got some pictures and went on with our day.

I finally had my first OB appointment on April 6th and I was a few days shy of being 14 weeks. She did the normal papsmear and check-up and then we went over my pregnancy history. My appointment took 4 hours! It was so long but so worth it. She too, confirmed my due date as October 9th and we did a transvaginal ultrasound to see the baby better. Because I developed preeclampsia with my two boys, my doctor wants to be very proactive this go around. With Paxton, I developed preeclampsia at 34 weeks and made it to 36 weeks for delivery and with Maddox, I developed it at 28 weeks and made it to 36 weeks. (At the time, we thought we made it to 37 weeks but my other doctor kept in her notes that his due date was actually a week later than we thought which made his birth be 36 weeks gestation) Anyways, at my appointment, my blood pressure was a little higher than she liked at 127/87. What threw me for a loop was that she told me I was high risk. I told her that at the end of my pregnancies, I was high risk but not now. She corrected me and told me that I'm considered high risk NOW because of my history. That word "high risk" just sounds scary and I definitely wouldn't classify me as high risk now, but what the heck do I know. Right?! Here is what I know so far and will have to do:

- 24 hour urine collection once a month followed by labs (already did my first one)
- I see my doctor every two weeks for appointment
- I have to see a perinatal specialist once a month (my first appt is on April 28th)
- I have to keep a log of my blood pressure and take it twice a day
- I can't have any caffeine because it contributes to high blood pressure (sucks cause I LOVE me some Cherry Pepsi and Dr.Pepper :( boo!)
- If I make it to 36 weeks, we will have a scheduled c-section (I've had both boys that way) and that puts the baby's "due date" as September 10th. We will discuss this more as I get further along in this pregnancy.

So, this baby will be here in September, right before my birthday on the 20th and I couldn't think of a better present than that! We've had 3 ultrasounds already so here's a compilation of our favorites. Here is our little babe at 14 weeks.

Hopefully that answered everyone's questions. If not, let me know what else you want to know! And if you wouldn't mind, we'd love some good vibes and prayers sent our way that this pregnancy will go well and that I won't have to be on bedrest for more than 8 weeks! 😘

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Harrison Update!

Wow, it's been a really, really long time since I've updated the blog. I have a bunch of blog drafts that I need to publish and well, 3 years of posts to write and I definitely need to change the header to this blog! 😳 Eek. Haha. But for now, we'll start with this.

Marc and I have decided to share some personal things on this blog. Not just for us to reflect on but to hopefully have our friends and acquaintances aware of some issues that we have been facing. We'll start off with the not so serious stuff first!

Paxton is 6 and is officially a 1st grader. It's crazy to think that the last time I was updating this blog, he was only 3 years old. Man, does time fly by or what?! Pax goes to school all day and boy, is it nice! Haha. I dread waiting in the pickup line after school, everyday, for 45 minutes. He lost his 1st tooth about a week ago and he looks so cute with it gone! I won't be saying that when he loses his two top teeth though. 🙈 Anywho, Pax is hilarious and has grown up so much lately!

Maddox is 3 and is my little sidekick around the house. I watch a little 7 month old girl everyday from 5:30am until about 2pm, M-F and he loves having a girl around. He absolutely loves being outdoors on the trampoline or riding his Strider bike. Maddox is equally a momma's boy and daddy's boy. He talks up a storm, finally! And we love that his "C's" and "K's" are pronounced with a "T". So when he says "cute" it sounds like "Tute" or "Cupcake" is "TupTate". We are going to be putting him into speech therapy soon though. And just like Pax, Maddox is hilarious!

Marc has been with Skywest for almost 3 years, come this November. He is still a First Officer but has put in for Captains position to 5 bases and whichever one opens up, we will be moving! He has put in for Seattle, Washington, Portland, Oregon, Denver, Colorado, Palm Springs, California and Los Angeles, California. He has been offered a Captains position in Detroit, Michigan but turned it down! Detroit just doesn't sound appealing to us! So we are holding out for one of those bases I listed above. His normal schedule usually requires that he is gone 4 or 5 days straight every week so we don't get to see him much 😢 But as long as he loves his job, I'm happy to support him on that. After all, it does have its perks!

As for me, I still stay home with kids! Back in 2015, I started a graphic design business called Picadilly Prints and it has been fun to do. I've taken a break from it for the past 3 months and don't know when I'll reopen my Etsy shop or take custom orders. Like I said above, I watch a little girl everyday and it has been nice. It's helping me get my baby girl fix. I LOVE traveling so usually I am off doing that! Although, not as much while Pax is in school. But any break he gets, we are gone! I've kept to myself a lot lately and hopefully, I haven't hurt anyone. I've just been trying to absorb everything that's been going on in my life lately.

We also added to our family! We now have a black mini goldendoodle lab. Her name is Roxy and we just adore her! I've never had a dog or did puppy training before and man, was that crazy or what! She sits, stays, comes, goes to her bed, lays and sometimes shakes.

And now, the real reason for updating the blog.....

Marc and I get asked VERY often, when we will have another baby. Or people will make their comments about how it's time for another one. We know that you're just excited for us to have another baby! And if any of you have asked, this is in no way, shape or form meant to be hurtful but we just felt it was time to get deep and address these questions. The bottom line is that we are struggling with getting pregnant. Marc and I have been trying for over a year and half And well, nothing has happened yet, clearly. Come January, we will be going to a fertility clinic to figure out what's going on. With Paxton, we went on vacation to Hawaii and I forgot my birth control for 4 days and well, we ended up pregnant. And with Maddox, I got off birth control, waited one month and tried the next month and we got pregnant with him. So for us to try this long and have no success, we aren't sure what's going on. So there it is. I keep telling myself that if one more person asks me, I'm going to explode. But the second that question is asked and I walk away from that person, I just cry my eyes out. We know that nobody is trying to hurt us especially when they aren't aware of the circumstances. Now you are. And trust us, if it were up to us, we'd most likely have 4 kids sneaking into our bed every night instead of just two.

At the beginning of August, I had miscarriage. I was about 9-10 weeks pregnant. And although it's a bummer that it happened, I knew something was wrong. I received two positive tests the first month, June, and then the second month, July, I got one positive and the rest negative. Then the first weekend of August, I had the miscarriage. I am ok and I'm dealing with it. It helped a little bit when I told the handful of friends/family what happened. And I'm hoping that by writing this down, it won't be such a heavy burden for us anymore. We'll see.

The last 3 months have really been trying on me. I feel like I'm holding the weight of the world on my shoulders. I know a lot of it is my anxiety taking over and that has been a main contributor in my decisions, or lack thereof when I have an attack. Anxiety is real. And it's terrible. I've been questioning and struggling with friendships and losing friendships while also creating new or stronger friendships. I don't want to be friends with people who aren't allowed to be my friend and I don't want friends that have to hide that they are my friend. I gave social media a break. Yes, I would post to Instagram but I've hardly ever, scrolled through the feeds to see what is going on. It's been a nice little break. And has helped me to spend more time focusing on me and my family. I've been doing some major soul searching and re-evaluating what kind of life I want and who I want in it. I've realized that mostly all I want and need is to love and be loved EQUALLY in return.

Marc has been my rock through these last few months. Words can't even describe how grateful I am for him and that he is mine for eternity. Thank you to the family and friends that have stood by me and helped brighten my days. Your constant words of encouragement or thoughtful actions mean the world to me. I'm also so grateful for the church in my life. And although we aren't receiving much guidance on our future, I know that Heavenly Father is there for us and always will be.

Here's to moving forward!


Thursday, October 17, 2013

1500 Flight Hours

The time has FINALLY come! Marc hit 1500 hours and with that, he starts interviewing for Regional Airlines!! He applied for 2 companies, SkyWest and ExpessJet. 
Within a couple days, they both responded and ExpressJet set up an interview date with him for October 9th. And Marc is in a Cadet program with SkyWest and will go to Salt Lake October 28th. So on October 8th, Marc flew out to Atlanta, Georgia (they paid for it) and did his interview! He was "informally" offered the job! YAY! 
About 4 days after he got home, they called and "formally" offered him a job. BUT because he really wants SkyWest, he turned it down for now. He has from his interview date till 6 months to call them back for the job. So that is comforting to know that we have backup! 

Here is where we stand.
If Marc gets a job with Skywest, we will move to California and live in Marc's parents house (they are serving a full time mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints) SO they wont be home and they cleared it out before they left for their mission. He will hub out of Palm Springs airport to most likely San Francisco. So he would spend less time commuting and more with us.

If Marc doesn't get SkyWest and goes to ExpressJet, we will move to Colorado, live with my grandma and he will commute out of Denver to hub most likely out of Chicago. He will spend way more time commuting and being away from us. 

Both of these situations involve being close to family and even living with one of them. Just so I can have the support while he is gone all the time. And if we decide to get pregnant again, it'd be nice to have help with the boys since I will most definitely have another hellish pregnancy with preeclampsia. 

One of the scariest things no matter which airline we choose is the HUGE pay cut we will be getting. Pilots that sign on their first year with a Regional Airline only make about 20,000 a year! (RIDICULOUS right?!) So, that is stressful. Oy vey. This would be about 1 1/2 to 2 years. With a minor pay raise the 2nd year but a higher pay raise the 3rd year. Hopefully he will be with a Major Airline by then. Maybe. 

And eventually, we would like to come back to Arizona. We really like it here. We NEVER thought we would ever move back to California. Colorado has always been an option for us, but never California. But the more we talk about it and pray about it, the more we are leaning on California with SkyWest. He just needs to get the job!!! (No pressure hun!) 

We will keep you posted!

Random Instagram Posts

 Selfie with Maddox
 Brought out the game Twister! Kids loved it!
 1st blowout

 Cortney came to visit us!
 Craft day!
 Pax after church one sunday
 "Walked in to find Pax in Maddox's bed, chatting up a storm with him while holding his hands.... He talked about Maddox's ouchies (shots), Jesus, Heavenly Father and nursery, how he got a sucker and when Maddox gets bigger he can have one and then pulled one of the band aids off. My favorite would be him telling Maddox that they have weiners and girls have pee-pees!!  I love watching and listening to Pax with his baby brother. And I love that when Maddox sees Pax, his whole face lights up! Cute, funny moments! So glad to be these kiddos momma!"

 Picnic inside
 Vacay down in San Tan: Waterpark fun!
The other Harrisons!
National Talk Like A Pirate Day. At Krispy Kreme, if you dressed up then you got a free dozen donuts. So all 3 of us dressed up and headed out to it. We got 3 dozen donuts! haha. And i only ate 3 of them! Talk about self control! We tried taking a picture of Pax, but he refused. Darn it!
 A friend from my ward invited to me to go to Kneaders with her for lunch! It was AMAZING! I miss living around the corner from it in Utah.
 My husband took this beautiful picture on one of his flights
 He's getting so good at sitting up on his own!
 Maddox is starting to get on his knees! And of course, Pax is loving every minute of it!
 My boys and i after church one sunday!
 Took the kiddos to Babies R Us and they got to ride in Mickey's car since they were good
Cute brothers
 Maddox and I sporting our Bronco gear! I LOVE football season.
These boys personalities are awesome!
 Yes that's throw up. Yes, it's gross. But with all the happy pictures I post all the time, I figured I'd post this picture.... A picture that shows the "behind the scenes" of the life of a mom. It's days like this, with sick babes, that I appreciate the happy, non sick days. It's days like today, when I wear throw up all dang long with no shower, that make me realize how selfless you are when your a mother. Being a mother has completely changed my life! This was my day. And I wouldn't trade it for anything. (Ok maybe I'd trade it for no throw up )
 Marc's work had a "Moon Festival" because its such a big deal in China. It was fun! Pax loved playing with the airplanes!
Relaxing day!
Marc's students threw him a bbq party for getting his hours and applying to airlines!

Friday, October 11, 2013

Maddox is 7 months

He weighs 17lbs and is 27 1/2 inches long. 
He wakes up twice every night to eat- 2am then 6am. 
He loves having his veggies for dinner (has only had banana and pears for fruit) 
He is still exclusively breastfed! 
He wears 3-6month clothes. Some are even (0-3)
And a size 2 diaper. 
He loves to crawl and plays with everything! Love him, love him, love him!

To celebrate, we spent the afternoon at the park. Maddox went on a swing for the first time and he loved it so much that it rocked him to sleep :)  The boys stared at each other most of the time they swung. Paxton thinks its so cool that his brother can do what he does now!

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Going Public...

We have decided to go public on our blog for awhile. We were always on the fence on having it public or private. But we made some changes and hopefully it'll all work out being public! Ive changed my blog name in hopes that some people wont get ahold of the new name and cause a ruckus! We shall see how that goes! We also decided to go public because of a bunch of printables I have already linked on Pinterest with. People kept asking me for the files so now I wont have to spend time emailing people the printables!

Happy Blogging!